DAY 123 - Paradigm Shift

I have always heard that phrase "paradigm" shift.  What exactly does that mean?  A change of thoughts, or a change of events, or a change of what?  It certainly is a change.  Well, since I am the one who is posting, I guess it can mean whatever I think it means.  Right? 

When I came to work at Nomen Global where we search for International Students, since I am an entrepreneur, I felt the concept, the vision of the boss to be mine also.  I could see the good he is doing, but I also realized that I was involved.  I was totally committed at NG. 

But through events, circumstances, it was told to me that I am here working, doing all I can, but have no part of the boss's dreams, visions, I am just an employee, doing a job.  I am not anything else.  A friend said the other day that it is almost impossible for an entrepreneur to be an employee.  Mainly because the Entrepreneur has a certain belief in how things should be done, how he has done them before, how he could help others do things the right way. 

So, it has been a very difficult thing to try to be an employee, seeing problems, errors, and things not done as efficiently as they should be.  I tried once to share and explain, but I was abruptly told that it is his business and not mine, so please do the work the way he wants me to.

So I start the grind again, doing it his way, and losing visions and dreams how things should be, could be better.  Now I know that I am not the expert, but I have had many businesses and can see errors that are made, challenges that come back to bit an owner, but must not say anything.  I am coping with the fact that I have felt the Spirit telling me I should remain here.  Once in the  past few months, another job opened up, and I was told my place was here, not looking for another job. 

However, the Paradigm shift is telling me that I need to not be so committed to remain here.  If I find another job that will help propel us on our way toward our mission, I should seriously consider it.  I am not as tied as I once was here.  But who is going to consider hiring an old man for four months when he is going to leave the country in four months.

Anyway, after the earthquake of one week ago, I feel I should pursue other things for the last four months.  (Tongue in Cheek, or TIC) Perhaps that is going to be how I "find" $50,000 before I leave for a mission?  So I will continue to be one of the greatest employees he has, but will not stop my eyes from wandering to other means to earn a living for four months.  Is that a paradigm shift?  Is it when I feel I even should consider what else I can do to more adequately prepare for our mission?  Anyway, be that whatever it is, I feel differently right now, and the next few weeks will tell me whether it means anything or not.

NOTE: I finally figured out what a PARADIGM is.  It is twenty cents, right.  A paradigm plus a nickel is a quarter.  Just a thought.