Once in a while I believe it is in our best interest to become Father and watch what we are doing. So today, for a few minutes I tried to become what I assume Father is, what He is thinking.
I looked at my life and realize that Father is shaking His head at me. He is trying to teach me something but I am rejecting his lessons. He has told me to lose a few pounds. I am losing that battle. Today, I went to work with a tiny little sandwich figuring that I would lose poundage if I stopped eating so much. They guys at work wanted to go to a Mexican place for lunch. I told them I loved Mexican, but I had too much to do. I figured I would remain and eat my sandwich. Well after I ate my sandwich, they returned and brought me a large burrito. Of course I ate it and felt bloated. It was sure good, but I am sure that I gained weight today.
I am sure Father is shaking His head watching me eat every last morsel of that burrito. What happened to my commitment. Father is also frustrated with me getting frustrated that I cannot run faster than is needful. He is wishing that I would learn faster than I am. He is hoping that I can finally get it through my thick skull that He is in charge and He wants me to be peaceful and joyful with the good things in my life. He is frustrated that I let the obstacles grow in my mind and take over the major part of the space in my head.
He loves me, but is sure wishing that I could be more patient, learn faster, reject food when it is giving me pounds that I really don't need in favor of tasting good and enjoying Mexican food.
As Father watches me, analyzing my feelings and frustrations, waiting patiently for me to "get a clue" and learn, I am sure He finally understands my slow nature of learning, growing, or losing weight. I am so glad He loves me through my lack of vision of His plans for me. Thanks for that.
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