One of the blessings of our circumstances right now is we are close to and able to serve our children and grandchildren. Almost every night, we are going to their houses and tending children. It is a joy. I am sure when we finally leave, we will miss that opportunity.
I feel like I am living three lives. One is the life I live at work. I am totally occupied trying to find students to come to the US to learn English. I have students from all over the world coming. I am constantly helping them get ready to come. I am also constantly trying to find agents or those who will help us find students in their countries.
The second life is the one experiencing our kids and grand kids. It is the one where we are surrounded with our ward members, with home teaching, with the life away from work. It is like these two worlds do not influence each other. I enjoy my life at home much more than at work.
The third life is the proximity of the life we will live in the future. It is unknown. We can try to imagine what we will be doing, where we will be doing it, and with whom will we be doing it. It is sort of like a dream. It is real, I assume. But not... It won't be real until we receive other confirmations that it is real.
Three different lives. Only two of them take up much of our physical time. The dream-like life takes up lots of mental time, thus taking away from the other two. Three lives. Each one separate from the other two. One will eliminate the first two, but who knows when.
I try to explain where we are, and how things feel, thoughts flow, and many things, but it is difficult to explain the feelings and what is going on in our lives. Suffice it to say I am living three different, separate lives.
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