DAY 3 -- Another Waiting Period Coming - Isn't That A Cookie

Three days until M day.  Yes, I believe we are  going to make it.  At least we will make it to that day to celebrate 40 years.  But whether we will have our call by then, who knows. 

Slowly, this "mission thing" is becoming a dream again, a concept that is starting to seem surreal.  My enthusiasm has waned, elevated, dropped, risen, etc.  I remember deciding one year ago that we would be going on a mission.  I remember submitting our papers by pushing the button about 10 weeks ago.  I remember getting physicals to verify our well-being so we could go.  I remember many times talking with our bishop about the possibilities.  I remember most recently discussing this mission with our stake  president, seeing him "push the button" and know that the papers were in Salt Lake with the authorities.
Then Bonnie and I felt an increase of excitement, knowing that we were only days away from knowing where and when we would go on our mission. 

Now, as things sort of feel like they are falling apart, I get further and further away from that excitement of  going on a mission.  Things are "rocky" at work.  My computer was given an added period of time to live before it dies for good.  My eyes seem to be losing focus, as is my mind.  The University of Utah hasn't won a football game for many months.  I question if we will ever get a call.  I am getting deafer and deafer.  Huh?

If I pause to consider why I am losing our vision of a mission, I can come up with many reasons.  I try to combat that feeling of depression with positive events getting us closer to our mission.  But there doesn't seem to be any.

I asked myself last night before I dropped off to sleep, "Is this really real, are we really going to go on a mission?  Will our call come someday?"  I guess it is another lesson of patience, not losing hope, and believing in the process which is happening in SLC. Or the process I believe is happening in SLC.

If I borrow the Psalm of Nephi, "Awake my soul.  No longer droop in questions.  Don't let those thoughts so easily eliminate the visions of being Called To Serve.  Replace the  negative with the strength of God and smile, go forward with faith, hope and charity. Etc.  -- and Patience."

It is sure interesting to go through this process.  We are not through it yet.  We still wait.  And when we get that special envelope from Headquarters, we will start another waiting period, I am sure.  Will that one be different?  Guess we will find out.  Hurry up and learn Patience!

Last night Bonnie and I dreamed.  I dreamed we are going to Cameroon.  (Isn't that a cookie?) Bonnie dreamed we are going to the North Countries.  Don't know what that means either.   Perhaps North Cameroon, or North Brigham?  Or it was all  just a bit of undigested potato?