This morning I asked Father to please bless me with patience, positive attitude, hope in our future, and joy. I mean, after all, man (that includes women and all) is that he might have joy. I came to work and, as always happens when one prays for peace and comfort, everything was in turmoil. I had to dive right in and strive to resolve all the headaches, and be worthy of that joy I sought.
Well, it took me a few hours, and then I felt a joyous feeling descend upon my heart. Nothing has really changed. We are still waiting for our appointment with our Stake President. We are still where we were before. But, Father has seen fit to bless me with joy, with peace, and with faith in Him and His management of our lives. As I wrote a minute ago, nothing has changed, but rather than dwell upon the frustrations that still beset me, I am feeling a joy, a peace, and the love of an Eternal Father. He knows me, He loves me, He is managing events, circumstances, people, and problems I have. It is such a peaceful feeling.
It is up to me. I have to seek it, want it, and then be worthy of it. I have to watch for it, and recognize it and nurture that feeling of faith in Father and watch for witnesses of His love in my life. Too often I feel, not depressed, sad and lonely, but dwelling too much on things I cannot change and wishing for things that I want, no matter Father's time table. Too often my mind is not where I want it to be, but floating around in the mortal events of life. Too often I am unaware of the many blessings I enjoy every day, my eternal and mission companion, and what is in front of us. All too often I am in the attitude of depression rather than the attitude of gratitude, for the attitude of gratitude invites the spirit of peace, comfort, and hope in today and tomorrow.
Thanks for the peace, hope, faith I feel strongly today. I must work on keeping it now, nurturing it and retaining it, for all other things are insignificant when that happens. I feel joy!
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