DAY 111 -- Beauties or Uglies, Which Has My Attention?

What a glorious vision it is.  What is "it.?"  What a glorious vision is this gospel of Jesus Christ. I think of the blind all across the world who are walking in darkness, not knowing the truth I know.  I question where I would be if I did not know the Eternal Truths I know and use to live each day.  I question how many of my beloved brothers and sisters are walking in darkness, questioning their life, their purpose, and their destination.

Why am I so blessed to know what I know, to have the Spirit in my life to touch my mind and give me direction, to answer my questions, to comfort me when I am on the verge of fainting?  Why am I one of the special to have the power of the Priesthood in my life to permit me to do His will with His approval?  Why does He bless me so much every day, every hour as I know what I know.

"Where much is given, much is expected."  There must be much expected from me, since I have so much.  I know that I am His son just as you are His son or daughter.  I know it is His work to get me back into His presence.  But there are days like today when I feel so unworthy of the many blessings I have been given, as well as those I received daily, even hourly.  I have been given much.  I too much share.

But how do I share?  With whom do I share?  What is expected of me since I have so much?  I am afraid that too often I sit and ponder the scriptures, go to church and listen to testimonies and lessons given, live my life as every day, and do not give enough thanks for the blessings I have.  I ignore what is expected of me.  I don't even let that thought go through my mind. 

I am fine. I am plugging along.  Yes, I have trials and obstacles, illness and mountains to climb.  No everything is not as I would have it.  But what do I dwell upon?  Are the challenges in front of me so large, at least in my mind, that I do not count my blessings or I don't consider the things I know and hold so dear?  Do I concentrate on the road bumps rather than the beauties I have to enjoy and smile about?

I am afraid I have not given enough attention to the beauties in my life and concentrated on the uglies instead.  I need to repent and improve.  That is my feeling, my goal, and my challenge of today.