A new year lies in front of us. What have I done this year? What am I going to do this next year? What Eternal Principles have I learned this year? What trials and blessings will I be earning, learning from this year?
A new year always brings forth a time to pause and reflect, evaluate, plan, and dream. Have I done enough, been compassionate enough? Have I served enough? Have I touched others in uplifting them enough? Did I leave too many things undone that should have been done?
When I think these thoughts, I have a tendency to be very harsh in judging myself. I have a likeliness of wondering why I am not better than I am. I tend to see the need to repent and improve. However...
My loving Father has not given up on me, He knows my heart, He knows what I have been through and He knows the progress I have made better than I do. As I glance upward and ask, "How am I doing Father?" I feel a very comfortable feeling that He is aware of where I am, what we are trying to do, and what is in store for me in the future. I get a feeling that I should not be proud, but I should be comfortable in where I am and what I am. He has a blue print with my name on it and things are progressing along the lines that He dictated, dictates, and is planning for me. It is all for my own benefit.
He knows my heart. He knows my testimony. He knows what potential I have, what I have failed at and what I have learned. He knows my desire to serve a mission and what we are doing to be prepared.
When I internalize these thoughts about my Eternal Father, I realize I need to work on being at peace, exercise faith in His nurturing and His testing of me. My peace and joy needs to increase in these thoughts, and thus I can do more for Him. Rather than be harsh on myself, criticize myself for my weaknesses, I need to be joyful, be excited about tomorrow and celebrate life. Rejoice, the Lord is King and He knows me, loves me, and is on my side.
Thus another goals has popped into my mind. I need to be more joyful and peaceful. Though things are not going exactly as I would plan them, as I would desire them, they are going as He would have them and as He would desire them, for His purposes are for my benefit.
Thus this day as I start a new year. I need to work on being more peaceful, joyful, serviceable, and loving of others. Another goals to work on for five months.
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