DAY 149 --- Faith Not Money

I was lamenting yesterday when I made the comment, "I don't understand why I am planning on going on a  mission, for I have no money, and I am in debt."  The one who heard it replied, "People don't on a mission because they have money, they go because they have faith." 

Then my mind raced and I realized that he spoke the truth.  It is 149 days until we celebrate our 40th anniversary of being married, of entering the Salt Lake Temple and being sealed for time and eternity.  We have been blessed with the struggles of money since we were married.  Bonnie had seven proposals of marriage and I was the seventh.  She must have felt tired and depressed cause she kept turning those love sick boys down.  Then along came Bill Partridge and since she was tired, she said OK.

I have reviewed my earthly father. He was blessed with more than sufficient for his needed.  He was never rich, but he had enough.  All things are as they should be, then and now.

It is a waste of time to "go back" and question "what if."  There are no "what if's" in Father in Heaven's language.  Things happen as they should.  Bonnie and I got married and there is no what if about those other six depressed young men.  There is no what if about our finances. 

We are all set in our path in mortality and all of us have different things to learn from, to grow from, and to accept and live with.  It is His plan to perfect us all, and that is why we go through different things.  Father knows us as our Father should and knows what we need to learn in mortality.  He blessed us to marry each other and blesses us with financial insecurity. 

But that tends to teach faith in Him.  I know the scripture in the D and C which says "...there is enough and to spare..."  But then it says He will direct when, how and if, all about money.  He has chosen to teach us these lessons by what we experience in this  life. 

Back to faith.  I want to go on a mission this summer with Bonnie.  It is a given and we are working towards it.  We don't know exactly how we shall do so, but I have had many confirmations that we will go.  He knows where we are financially, physically, emotionally, and all ways.  He will provide the way, when and how He wants to.

We just exercise faith.  We need to go on a mission with our faith, not with financial backing.  If is a large comfort to me to know that Father knows where  I am and what I am doing.  Nothing surprises Him. All we have to do is BE mold-able, listen and follow, and He will direct and support.  Those tender mercies will be made known to us in His time frame.