Monday, December 19, 2011

DAY 173 -- Added Reasons of the Desire to Go

What a special day it was yesterday at Church.  We talked about the Savior, I heard one of my favorite Christmas carols, "O Holy Night" sung by a ward member, and had lots of time to ponder about the season. 

As I pondered, I thought about this blog I do daily.  Once my boss asked me why  wanted to go on a mission.  I told him I just wanted to serve, I love missionary work, and I am looking forward to serving with my companion. But after yesterday, I want to add a few more answers to the question, "Why a mission?"

Ringing in my mind is the discourse Elder Holland gave in Priesthood Meeting in October,  pleading for more Senior Missionaries.  Since he has always been a favorite of mine and since I can also recall the Prophet asking for more Senior Missionaries, I guess you could say that wanting to serve a mission would be an act of obedience. 

Another reason is what I was reminded of yesterday in Gospel Doctrine class.  We talked about the Savior and the atonement and how it influences our lives.  I paused and pondered his actions, the events surrounding the atonement, and then felt a bit teary eyed.  I cannot realize my fondest dream of the Celestial Kingdom with those I love without His Atonement.  He did it for me.  He had pain for my weaknesses.  He suffered because I am a sinner.  So, I feel serving a mission may, in a tiny way, help to repay  my Savior for the many things He has done for me.

The feelings of joy is another reason I want to serve with Bonnie.  I remember fondly the joy I felt as I saw people entering the waters of baptism in Mexico long ago.  I tenderly recall the feelings of joy as I have the opportunity of serving in the Kingdom. I remember teaching my children the joys of service and now all of them know of what I speak.  Joy comes from sacrificing, and what better sacrifice than to sacrifice for my Savior and my Father.  Joy brings it's own reward, and I guess I am selfish when I desire that feeling surrounding me.

One last reason for wanting to serve a mission is getting to know brothers and sisters I do not know now.  I may have known them efore, probably did know them before this life and this will be a sort of reunion meeting them again in this mortality. 

I find it scary thinking about a mission, for the exact way to be able to serve is not clear to me as yet.  I am afraid I will get excited to the point of celebrating and then have that opportunity be withheld from us for a time.  Thus I cautiously look forward to serving as a missionary in the coming months for many reasons.  Bottom line is I believe Father wants us both to serve a mission in about 173 days.

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