Mahonri Moriancumer-the brother of Jared, I read about him this morning. I feel like I have a boat and I am traveling to the promised land, but I am going in darkness. I feel like when he asked the Lord if they had to cross the seas in darkness. The Lord said, (paraphrasing) "what is it that ye would have me do?"
Yes, we are working toward our mission. Yes we have set many goals to get there, and yes we are on track to arrive at the destination in June, when we will celebrate our 40th year together. I have shared in this blog many times the reasons we want to serve. We are going to go in June, or around that time. We are making progress on each goal we have set, except the goal to have the money to serve. The debt that we absorbed because of the economy when we left our previous job will finally be paid off and we will be debt free.
But often when someone goes on a mission, they should have some money to pay their way. We have supported five of our six kids on missions, I am sure they would love to help. I am sure our grand kids will be glad to be involved also. There are a few others who have volunteered to help also. However, I still do not know how I will pay for our mission. I still have the dream to go to the bishop and say to him that we will serve wherever the Lord wants us to go with no restrictions. Perhaps money would be deemed a restriction? We go, we say to our bishop we want to go, and then say, we have no money. Sounds sort of foolish right?
Well, let's get back to the Jaredites. The brother of Jared asked if they were going to be forced to travel on the waters to the promised land in darkness. Then the Lord said, 'What do you want me to do?'
I feel like we are proceeding toward the promised land, but without lights, without money. If He wants us to continue in our journey toward June in darkness, without knowing, we will be glad to do so. But if He would like to enlighten us with light, a way to pay for our mission, we would be appreciative.
In the Brother of Jared's prayer, he said, (again paraphrasing) "...I know You can do this, touch these stones..." He did, and He did. I know Father has the power to help us go, to have sufficient for our needs as we serve a mission, and I know He wants us to go. Maybe I need to go and create a few stones?
Again, I will leave it in His hands, but perhaps I have not done enough to tell Father what we need so we can have the desired light to get to the "promised land" or our mission call. Maybe my faith is not sufficient? And maybe there are lessons to be learned traversing the oceans in darkness? If that be the case, we will do so and learn. If anyone has some crystal clear stones, please let me know, will you. ;)
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