Day 220 -- Where Did Humor Go, Too Busy Learning Lessons

I wanted to talk more about humor, joy and happiness.  But I am not going to.  Interesting how things happen to change my view of that.....   My sweet companion went into the doctor today to check out some things.  We were told that it looks like, at least, we will be spending about $3000 on a medical procedure that must be done.  It may be followed up with another one that would be much more than that.  But who knows.  We won't know until we do the first procedure, then we will have to cope with anything else that it finds.

Does that put a damper on our mission?  Does that give us pause and worry about the future possibilities?  Are we still anxious to go on a mission?  Will our planned mission in 220 days be delayed?

This is just another opportunity of growth, or another chance to learn from trials.  It is another chance to bend with the wind and not break.  It is an opportunity for us to show Father that nothing will stop us with our dreams of serving a mission, unless something does. 

Of course, out of the spectacles we see our future in right now, it will mean that we may have to put off our mission for a time.  We are on a tight budget to be totally out of debt in 220 days, thus put in our papers.  With this new "Unknown" it looks like it may delay us until we can be where we "envisioned" us to be if nothing happened to take us of that course.  Well, something is happening to take us off that course, at least today.  There are still seven months to see miracles, and Father is not limited in any of the miracles He may wish to send our way. 

The departure date has always been June 9, our 40th year anniversary.  With this new "experience" that departure date will change, at least looking at things as we see them today.  But Father is certainly capable of changing the glasses we are looking through today, of changing the scene we see today.  Just as our vision and goal of June 9th is now in question, He can change that also.

So, I guess this is a time to exercise faith and state firmly that we will endure whatever He wants us to endure.  We will continue toward our goal to serve a mission or five, but it is totally up to Father - if, and when.  No we don't feel forsaken, nor do we feel far from Father.  But we are concerned what these things we found out today will mean.  Faith, time, trust in Father, we will still offer our all to Him however and whenever He calls.  He knows more than we do, and will be willing to submit to whatsoever He blesses us with.  These things also will gain us experience.