DAY 195 --- Father

Since I talked yesterday about the "Science of Money" and presented the idea that Father uses money to teach many important Eternal Principles, I sat today before church started wondering how Father was feeling about me.  He has been tutoring me for  62 + years trying to get me to learn and grow.  He has been "blessing" me with financial challenges and teaching me to exercise faith in His care and His control of all things in my life.

I sat there, closed my eyes and tried to imagine Father standing, or sitting in front of me.  I knew I would see a never-ending love in His eyes as He looked at me.  I knew He was smiling at me.  I figure that He was pleased with the lessons I have learned, the testimony I have, and the desire I have to do His will.  I know He would tell me of the many, wonderful blessings He has in store for me to be given me one day in the future.

I know He would commend me for our goals and dreams of serving a mission in seven or so months.  I know He would explain to me that there are yet lessons to be learned in Mortality, and He was sure I would struggle, yet overcome.  I know He would express His confidence in my faith of Him and His tutoring, His effort to bring to pass my Eternal Life.

I know He would want me to express my frustration, my evaluation of all the trails I have right now, but I also know He would just smile His fatherly smile and nod His head and tell me to keep trying.  I know He would tell me that He will always be near me and will never leave me no matter how I struggle, question, and worry about the coming challenge of many things.

I could also imagine that He would step close to me, put His hands on my head and bless me to learn the lessons He is teaching, and ultimately bless me to know that I will overcome and will receive my innermost goal of obtaining life with Him one day.

I miss my Father and Mother in Heaven.  I know they are there and aware of me.  I know they see everything I am going through, and are proud of me.  They know the inner desires of my heart and are pleased.  As I say goodbye to my Father and open my eyes, I mention to my Father that I will talk to him constantly every day, as He will listen constantly to my feelings, my goals, and my dreams, and help me learn and grow..