DAY 243 --- Going Through The Motions

Today at work, I found myself going through the motions, doing what everyone expected me to do.  I felt fine, doing what I felt I needed to do.  No one got mad at me.  No one yelled at me.  I just went about the day, doing what was expected.

As my work day ended, I went home to a loving wife and once again did what I was supposed to do. We went to the church to clean it, for it was our turn.  I just did as I was told.  There were no problems, no catastrophes,  no accidents, and nothing to write home to mom about. (Since she is no longer on earth, that would be quite a challenge, but not impossible?)

Then as I sit and ponder about the day, I feel it was a failure.  Why?  Because I did not feel the influence of the Holy Ghost.  I did not feel the love of my Father in Heaven.  I did not feel that peace and joy that is given to those who deserve it.

It was just a day, like so many others.  In my opinion, it was a day of failure.  Why can't we always feel the love our Father has for us?  Why can't hope and peace flood our minds and help us be joyful, outgoing, concerned about others rather than just have a "day, like so many others?"

What is the key to be blessed with the Spirit of Father?  What is the key to have the Holy Ghost come into our lives each day?  What is the key to feel excited about our life rather than complacent, bored, and just going through the motions?

I hope when we get on a mission, since we will be in the service of our God, we will feel that joy, that excitement about what we are doing, and who we are doing it for.  I know it is possible today, without waiting for a mission to feel those feelings off comfort and joy.  If I don't, it is totally my fault.  Guess I better find out why, for my last few days at work have been going through the motions with little or no Spirit in my life.