DAY 227 --- Our Mothers Knew It

I was reading my Book of Mormon this morning and realized that within eight months, we could be getting ready to go on a mission.  So, since Bon and I read the BOM every six months, the next time we start, we are going to read it together, discuss it, and learn from it.  It will be another avenue to prepare for our mission call.

We are currently in the last chapters of Alma, finishing up the war chapters.  Of course that is about the 2000 sons of Helaman.  As I read this morning, I read a phrase that keeps floating through my mind.  Of course I will have to paraphrase it.  "We did not doubt, our mothers knew it." 

That belief in their mother's testimonies, their mother's and father's teachings preserved all of them from being killed in battle.  Miracle after miracle during thee battles with the Lamanites, they came out of it alive while thousands of their co-fighters were killed.  I wonder as they were fighting with their swords if they were thinking of their mother's teachings, their mothers knowledge.  Their faith preserved their life.  Later on in the history of the Nephites, these stripling warriors were instrumental in helping the whole nation in battles against the Lamanites. 

So as this idea is running around in my mind, do I doubt?  We have been preparing for a mission.  We are doing all in our power to prepare to go in less than 8 months.  But do we doubt?  Sorry to say, but I do.  I often ponder and fear things that may come up that could prevent us.  I question what will happen if we do not find either money or those to support us.  I fear the disappointment that we may not go.  Do I doubt?

As I read that scripture this morning, I realized that perhaps the meaning of that phrase is to make me reaffirm my commitment, my goal, and my positive attitude that we, indeed, will be privileged to serve together as missionary companions.  As I trudged through the day, I realized that I am not where I want to be exercising my faith, having the faith of those 2000, living the as if principle.  Would my life change if I "lived" the dream, the mission, and acted as if the mission call is just a matter of time, nothing else?  I need to analyze that a bit more for my own attitude about our coming call.  I need to look forward to June just as those 2000 approached their battles, their life knowing what they mother preached to them.