DAY 256 -- Is My New Goal Good?

I wonder.  I mean, I have a dream to earn enough money to serve a mission, to do His will.  But money is used to corrupt as well as do good.  Money changes people, I have seen it.

When I consider that I have a goal to earn $50,000, I wonder whether I am missing the boat.  I mean, if my High Priests will support us with my family, why worry about that money.  When I was a kid, or at least younger, (even yesterday I was younger than I am today) I saw how Father uses money, or the lack thereof to teach Eternal Principles.  I wanted to write a book about the "Science of Money" how is it used and abused, how people learn from it and get destroyed from the pursuit of it.  I could see many lessons concerning money.

I watch my children, as well as others I know well, react to the struggle of money.  I quietly watch as they learn lessons.  I don't put my input in, for Father uses that tool to teach, make humble, uplift, and even bless His children.  I recall the sad experience of seeing a dear friend become hardened, less Spiritual, and less serviceable because of the money he was given by Father.

Bonnie has repeatedly told me that she would love to have something when we come home from our mission.  That is part of the purpose of this new goal.  I am sure it is hard for a home maker to know that after a mission, she will be returning to nothing.  Thus my new goal.

We are going to joy over General Conference this weekend.  As I listen intently to the testimonies, the stories, and the witnesses I hear, I am going to seek a revelation that this new goal is according to Father's wishes.  Once again, whether I get there or not is not that important.  It is the path I have chosen to pursue, work toward this goal, this dream that is the important thing.  I want to know that it is His will that I work toward the realization of this new goal involving a great deal of money. 

I hope to return and report to the readers of this blog after conference about that wish and goal, to get an answer, or confirmation about pursing this goal.  Thus far, I feel good about it, and I am excited to pursue realizing it.  Then reality sets in and I question.  Fifty Thousand is a lot of money.