A couple of days ago I realized the importance of looking to God, and Doubt not Fear not. Well I found out today, another one of my brilliant dreams, plans, carefully laid organizations fell apart again. I continue to try to figure out how to expedite our dreams and goals. I continue to dream dreams and see visions.
However, just seeing those visions and striving to work toward them is not enough. I set up the foundation, the process to see this "vision" to the end, which would have helped us along our way, and it totally fell apart. I lamented, felt sad and asked myself, "why try?"
I know Father wants us to continue to work toward our mission next year. I know the Kingdom needs senior missionaries. I know that we have at least some abilities to use to help in the Kingdom. I know that the smaller dream to help realize the larger dream was good and could have helped many along the way.
But it was not to be. As it fell apart once again, (I have been working on this particular dream and possibility for many years) I started to get frustrated, sad, and questioning, WHY? Then I remember the lesson of yesterday.
Look to God and Live. Doubt not Fear not. I grabbed a hold of that concept, realized nothing had changed about our goal to go on a mission. Father still loves us and is in total control. If one of my dreams does not come to fruition, why be sad and frustrated? The works of man, or of mine, are frustrated, not the works and goals of Father.
That truly helped me get out of the impending "depression" or negative attitude, which was where I was headed. Look to God, Doubt not His love and control of things, and realize that there are always lessons He is teaching. I just need to remember to look for the lesson rather than feel the frustration when my goals are lost.
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