Yesterday I blogged (is that a word?) about the wonderful blessings, the eternal reward that Father wants to give us. So many times in my mortal journey it has not seems like that was true. So many times I have had my share of challenges, struggles, and questions about when, and if I was still in line to receive all those eternal blessings. I couldn't help but ask what I had done to deserve the trials I was facing. So often many of us have questions along the same line. We strive to do all we can do. We sacrifice for what we know to be true and right. Then the whole world falls apart.
I can't even share how many times I have been on the cold flat surface waiting for an xray to explain many internal problems, where the kidney stone was, why my shoulder was out of whack again, etc. When troubles were encountered at work and I suffered too many times being fired,when we were the focus for a sub for santa project, etc, etc. Why? What did I do to deserve that kind of pain, turmoil, forsaking from my Father?
Why do we always internalize and think that our trials and challenges are because of what we have done? Life isn't for wimps, even though we see one when we look in the mirror each morning. The whole challenge we have is to seek deep within the cobwebs of our mind and dust off our faith in our Savior, the knowledge we have that Father knows what we need, how much we need, and what we should be learning, and how we should be drawing closer to Him through it all. Even Joseph Smith pleaded with Father, Oh Father, where art thou? What covereth thy pavillion...?
I know there are reason for each one of these circumstances for my own growth, but it is often hard to remember that, live that, and exercise faith in that.
(Note:When I sit to write this blog each day, I offer a prayer to know what He would have me write. It is interesting that He continually has me write on this subject. Perhaps because it is something that I have to remember firmly in my mind?)
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