Laman and Lemuel were murmuring constantly. Nephi said that they murmured because they "knew not the dealings of the Lord." Do I find myself in that situation and let murmuring escape my mouth? Or do I question things that happen to me that can be classified as murmuring?
During the last few weeks, there were times when I asked questions, complained, and couldn't figure out why certain things could happen. I was trying to do the work of the Lord. I was trying to do what He wanted. I was striving to realize dreams and visions about going on a mission. I was at least thinking about losing weight and working on that part of the dream. Then why did I feel forsaken, forgotten, and fail in my efforts?
I guess I was murmuring just like Laman and Lemuel. Yes, of course I know Father loves me. Yes I know He is teaching me things for my benefit. Yes I know He is letting me experience some of these things so I can be a more effective tool in His hands. But when things do not go as I plan them, when things come back to haunt me, and when I feel questions and don't see why things do not go as I plan them, I guess I am murmuring and forgetting the workings of the Lord.
If I kept in my mind always that He knows what is best, He knows when, how, and even the why's of things, how could I, why should I ever murmur? It is sad to realize that I have that murmuring bug that bites me too often which takes away the Spirit from my mind, my thoughts, and my welfare. If I know the dealings of the Lord, perhaps I should remember them.
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